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Matthew,
Before saying anything here I wanted to see your work, because perhaps that has something to do with it. In looking at your posts I see that you are 16. I had the same anxieties when I was that age, and I can tell you that you are just feeling the normal anxieties of your age and you have every chance of getting over them bit by bit as you your age.. Your drawing example is just great here on this site.
I would suggest to you to continue to refuse commissions and concentrate on drawing what you enjoy. If you want to share your work, then do drawings for friends for their birthday present. Or paint/drawing something you enjoy and be open to selling these works at a local art fair that are already done - this gives some sales experience but eliminates the "performance anxiety " of selling something that you haven't even made yet. I sold a few paintings myself when in high school and it always felt very strange but neat. The concern I'd have for you in worrying about selling anything is that it may change how you grow as an artist , for example picking a subject matter because you think is will sell vs. picking a subject matter because it interests you.
There's a time and place for everything. If you're feeling uncomfortable getting yourself involved in commissions, well I would say its your good intuition and not your fear keeping you from going there. Don't worry about it, just concentrate on what inspires you, and have fun playing with new techniques and compositions to find your artistic voice.
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