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Time is my motivator
I am still so new at this that every drawing is a revelation for me. Many times as the drawing is developing, my mind is in awe. "Is it really me creating this??!" I, too, have the experience of complete wonder and total surge of joy when the person rises out of the paper, right before my eyes. The drawing catches that twinkle in the eye, or the softness of personality, the soft curve of her neck, the pride in his shoulders, etc.
However, cast next to the sunshine of this joy is the shadow colored with envy and sadness. At 48 I have lost so many years. It is often hard to read of other's lives, those my age and much younger, who have had formal training, and years of working on their craft.
So, TIME is my great motivator. I want the chance, yet in my life, to live at doing art full time, perhaps even support myself with my art (or find a rich patron to support me so I can do my art!! As in the days of yore!!) I suffer from arthritis and worry that my TIME is so limited, yet I have to work to support myself, with little left over for pursuit of my first love!
But, mostly, I am grateful and thankful to my Creator, for yet the chance to develop His gift.
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