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Fear, fear, fear!
What I dread most is the fact that fear tightens me up. It doesn't allow the brush to move well. It stops me from blending colors well. It creates a painting that is safe. I cannot challenge myself in the state of fear.
So I realised that changing the state is the first job. Before picking up the brush the artist must be there with the brush, much in the way a ballet dancer must be there before going on stage. This is not always possible, however it is a key to our job.
On another note, we're very lucky that our work is permanent even if it is only on film after the painting is sold or destroyed (I put my fist through one recently). It is IMPORTANT, not just fun, to look at older paintings and realise that all of the lonely hours are leading somewhere.
Maybe the week you took off before starting the painting was the right thing to do. There's really nothing wrong with it. I believe most of us just need to get used to the fear. Desiring it to go away will not be the answer.
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