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Thank God!
Michael, I have been battling that same fear, thinking somewhere along the way of my career it would melt into a seasoned confidence. I know my skill level and sometimes it even surprises me, but there is that haunting anticipation with each new commission. But, it's not practice anymore, it's the real thing.
My confidence was much higher when I sat sketching at the town square and people would walk behind you and compliment and be amazed at the work in progress. It was good practice. Now, someone has handed you an enormous check for three-quarters of the amount you quoted as a half-hearted joke and you are sitting alone in a small bedroom you call a "studio" with a dry paintbrush and the clock ticking.
Of course, Michael, shame on you for scaring us amateurs like that. For a minute there, I thought you were serious. (grin)
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